I got sick because I lost myself. I don't even know if I can say it that way. Lost myself. I never knew myself, but something that was close to a human being inside of my body used to be alright at some time in the past. I just wonder what it was that changed me. Was it the past? Was it love? Was it hate? Or guilt? Or maybe just stupidity? I don't know who I am so my mind created this monster. People are so afraid of monsters, but honestly, monsters keep us alive.
Without them I'd cave in like a house of cards.